Typical Situation

i am so high i hear heaven, i am so high i can hear heaven.

but heaven, no heaven don’t hear me

and they say that a hero can save us

im not going to stand here and wait.

ill hold on to the wings of the eagles

and watch as they all fly away

++++everyone has a hero. it’s just  a matter of figure out who is worth the tears, laughter, madness, and happiness

+ i know my God is pretty cool+

“but i close my eyes and one more time we are spinning around and holding on tightly the words came out i kissed your mouth, no fourth of July had ever hurt so badly ya had to go i understand but you promised you’ll be back again, and so i wonder around this town till summer comes around”

im told to just throw you out of my life right? isn’t that how it is suppose to be? we have this amazing amount of time together and then you leave and “nothing ever happened”, right? i gave you my everything and im sure you the same to me, but i don’t understand. why can’t you accept that even though these things were never suppose to happen, they did. and you can’t lie and say they were terrible and you didn’t want to be there because i know you liked it and wouldnt have wanted to be anywhere else.

The fact of the matter is that shit happens, i mean hell we screwed up, why is that so wrong? we made a mistake but yet we are both so hard on each other…..

i miss our friendship.

i understand it is not our job to decide right and wrong it is our job to trust in Christ to guide us into right and wrong. but what he did was wrong, and we both know/knew that, why did we continue? why were you so attracted to me? why did i open up so well to you without a problem? why do i feel completely drawn to you in different ways? why do i have these feelings for you? all these and many more questions fill my mind, only God can answer them now…

i don’t understand.

“you can plant me like a tree beside a river, you could tangle me in soil and let my roots run wild, and i will blossom like a flower in the desert, but for now just let me cry”

I find that time is something i run short of lately. is it a bad thing? not at all, i like the feeling of being rushed not only because it means i have fun things to do but also it makes me not think of you as much. and i know that you may not think of me but just know i think of you a lot, correction all the time. there isn’t an hour that goes by in which you weren’t on my mind for a matter of 5-10 minutes. time is just another part of the day in which we fret about.

time is just something to be pushed aside.

stay out till 3 in the morning with someone who means a lot to you, kiss that person for hours on end, laugh for hours with those who mean something to you, cry for hours when he breaks your heart or leaves, live in the moment and don’t worry about the consequences until they happen, watch a movie every day with that same person, spend every waking moment talking to them and being with them, go and do stupid things with that person till the sun rises, just live life for what it is meant to be, show time that it is not longer a problem to be scratched off the list, and most of all, make all of these moments for the one who “knew you before you were formed in the womb who has your life planned by ever second” do it for the one “who died on that cross so that we might have eternal life”.

how will your time be spent?

suddenly i feel You holding me, suddenly i feel You holding me, sweep me away<3

sometimes we wonder, why cant the Lord just sweep us away from this world that we are faced with each and everyday! in reality He can, and trust me if He could He would, but He puts us through these obstacles these situations for a reason. trust in Him with everything you have and you will understand in the end why you were put through this situation. if He brings you to it He will bring you through it, dont worry life will get better.

i think with this new school year we sometimes are so overwhelmed with life, relationships, and school. sometimes that Friday night that we don’t want to go out is when we miss everything that happened but times when our body needs the relaxation. we are going and going and going, we need to slow down and get our mind, heart, and souls back in order. times when we just need to sit back and relax is much needed in order to keep a balanced life.

i miss summer and all the rest, relaxation, relationships, reactions, and rapture that occurred.

“as i carry this cross, you’ll carry me”- Audrey Assad

such an intense set of words given to us. this is so powerful in so many ways. as we struggle in life we continue to assume that life is terrible and it will never get better.

we as christian are called to carry our cross everyday, our cross being our own worldly struggles. by taking it upon ourselves our own worldly sins and struggles we continue to get ourselves down. by struggle we know we will bring ourselves out of this struggle, we long to get rid of this struggle given to us. by us carrying our own cross in return the Lord will carry both.

we have to learn to truly trust in the Lord with everything. people say they do, but in all reality you don’t. you don’t know full trust in the Lord until you understand that nothing in life truly matters because he is life, love, and happiness. through him he will grant everything “delight in the Lord and he will satisfy the desires of your heart”(Psalms 34). the Lord knows what you want, you may be wrong but he knows what you desire what you long for, in the end he will grant it. now it will change over time but he knows everything about you! your whole life is planned in his hands. “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations…”Do not say, ‘I am only a child.’ You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. ⁸ Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you.”(Jeremiah 1:5-8) Stop making excuses for yourself! do what the Lord asks and maybe your life wouldn’t suck as you would say.

everyone isnt perfect, and we are all hypocrites but we are called to live out not only our own words but also the word of the Lord. Just because you wear a cross doesn’t mean you live out the life Christ did. Just because you pray everyday doesn’t mean you are living out the life of Christ. Just because you go to adoration every week doesn’t mean you are living out the life of Christ. Living the life of Christ is in every aspect of your life sports, struggle, love, happiness, sorrow, school, clubs, etc. everything is his, turn yourself to the Lord, in the end everything will be good if everything isn’t good its not the end.

3 nails, 1 cross, eternal life. choose your choice wisely.

cause i’m a warrior, and this is my battle ground.

why is it that the good things always go unnoticed? you can do everything right and the negative will still overpower it. ohh, not to mention when you do something wrong that person is 10x’s harder on you. cause basically you messed up, not to mention the other 5 players on the court you are the reason we didn’t get the point.

team work: noun

have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone? have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry? you called me sugar…have you ever wished for an endless night? lassoed the moon and stars and pulled that rope tight? have you ever held your breath and asked yourself if it will ever get better than tonight? you called me sugar…

i wished for endless nights all the time. i stared at the phone for countless hours waiting for you to text or call me. the way your touch felt makes me cry thinking about it. always asked myself if it got better then any night with you. you called me sugar…i still wish you were here, i miss you so much. you were my everything, you helped me get through life, put a smile on my face, made me laugh, showed me emotion, taught me its ok to love, to be vulnerable, to care. come back, please…..i miss you far to much…

typical situation: finding someone you want so badly even though you know you can’t have them. there is no possible way you two could ever work out under those circumstances. unless it is the plan of the great Lord above, but we both doubt that. Putting yourself through everything to absorb every moment possible with that one person, knowing in the end your just going to hurt yourself more by continuing to spend every moment or day together…

To see you, I would kill for. Whats easier knowing I will probably never see you again? or seeing you everyday of my life?

Your probably the biggest distraction in my life, am I complaining no! I would give up everything to remember the things that happened over those long months. The memories we made, the jokes we have, the lessons we both taught each other, but most of all the love and care we both showed and shared with each other.

Your on my mind no matter what, I find myself thinking of you more than anything in the world. You achieved your goal by bringing me closer to Him, but in that process you brought me closer to you. You left a mark on my heart whether you wanted to or not, you left a huge mark. You will always be in my heart, I’ll never stop loving or caring for you, but yet I know you the same… and

I miss you, and always will

I love you, and always will.

I care for you, and always will.