Typical Situation

LOVE

Those 4 letters can both break a heart and they can also bring joy. What is the word suppose to do, it is suppose to bring joy to a persons heart whether they want it to or not, it will. Love to me, personally depends on the person and the situation. However love is powerful. It comes naturally to most people. I fear love, because it shows weakness and I fear letting down my guard because it has been thrown away like a piece of trash, I do not want to feel that pain again. Love means everything to me however, I love love :). People tend to enjoy sharing love; I enjoy when people share love with me, it is a good feeling. People also destroy love to others; when a heart is broken because of love many times, the person will eventually fear love. Love to me is good and bad. It is good because it brings a whole other feeling into the relationship that is being held. Love is bad to me because it shows weakness, it lets people in to either destroy or to share. This to me, shows a great deal of weakness in which I have learned in my lifetime is not being a “strong” person. I have also learned that weakness is what makes a person human, if it wasn’t for those weaknesses then we clearly would not be human because we need weakness to balance out a daily life. Anyways, back to love, right? I have learned that love to some people is everything, and they cherish it and give it out like hugs. But to others I have surely learned that love is a word to be tossed around, a word to just say cause it sounds good. People throw the word “love” around like its just the thing to say. When you are dating for 2 weeks I’m pretty sure you do not love him/her. No matter how long you have been “talking” or hanging out. Love is something to experience it is something to be cherished for what it is. In 1 Corinthians 13: 1-13, what love is truly meant to be. This to some humans is stupid, to others it is beautiful. Love can be in everything we do, it can be in everything we say, it can be in the words we write, love is everywhere!  Love gets deeper and deeper over a gradual amount of time. Love is to come naturally, not something to be practiced.  Love is beauty, it is art, it is to be shared not kept held inside, and most of all love is to be cherished.

“he is jealous for me, loves like a hurricane, I am a tree, bending beneath, the weight of his wind and mercy”

Today, Black Friday; I had 2 full meals. <— shocker

lets see around 1-ish I decided to take a break from my “Real Life” project and to go get some food also so I can take my pain pills. I fixed left-overs from the day before (p.s. thanksgiving left-overs by far the best left-overs possible) anywayys. I fixed some delicious stuffing made by my Aunt Wendy, it was fabulous. I also had some good ole’ southern macaroni and cheese, made by my aunt Gena. And I fixed me some turkey, in which my cousin (great cook) Chad had made us the morning before. Then i took my pain pills and started back on my project.

Around 7-ish I had already been at Katy’s for a while so I went ahead and ate with them. As good as it gets again. Fresh macaroni & cheese, made by Katy. Good ole’ stuffing (that was green) made by Mom(Mrs. Mary). And some delicious turkey made by Jim (Mrs. Mary’s BF). After eating all of this delicious food I went and took a seat on the couch. Which is where I consumed 2 piece’s of fudge, made by Mom & Jim.

Welcome to the Church of the Holy Cabbage.  Lettuce pray.  ~Author Unknown

My parents. In fact today is the day my mother actually chose to have me. I was a choice to my parents. The other choice however was very high, thank God they chose life. MY parents are great, they have their ups and downs at times but its all good, who doesn’t. I love my mom, no matter how mean I am to her, she understands me. My Dad and I are like twins. We have the same everything. I am a daddy’s girl and I always will be. I am not close to my parents but they know enough about me to understand me. They do not understand why I do certain things but that is how it is suppose to be. They will be there for me, through it all no matter what, and I thank them for that. I love you, mom and dad<3

If you have never been hated by your child you have never been a parent.  ~Bette Davis

My first love. Well he was gentle, different from any other guy I had met. When I was with him, the world stopped turning. We were young but damn were we in love. I had basically made fun of him his whole childhood and then we started talking. It was the night of the 8th grade talent show, 3 years ago. He wasn’t all romantic and what not, he wasn’t the hottest guy alive, he wasn’t more popular boy, and he surely wasn’t liked by anyone else. He was weird, different, sweet, caring, loving, funny, and fun. He liked me for me, not someone else. He had liked me since we had met, always was obsessed with me made cute cheesy jokes. But back when he liked me I clearly didn’t. I was so mean to him and I played a lot of jokes on him. He really should have hated me….but some reason he still liked me. So we started talking the night of the Talent Show. When he walked in the doors my heart started racing and I was out of breathe. I could sense something was clearly going to happen between us. So the first night we exchanged numbers cause he had left the school we both went to, to go to another school. So anyway we exchanged numbers and he called me and we talked on the phone for 3 hours and fell asleep together so his mom eventually went into his room and turned of the phone. And we caught up and got to know each other a little bit more. Then we were just together. People said we would make it to marriage, clearly we didn’t. We made it through 10 months together, the last one was a little shabby, it was time for it to end. But the heart ache I went through was like no other. Anyways, he was my first love, and he surely will not be forgotten….

AJZ&JCC

Hello, I am Ally. I am a Junior. Sports are my everything. I want to go to college and play volleyball in a year and a half. I want to attend FUS, in Ohio its been my dream since I was little.I am a mystery to many. People think I am always happy and I have life so easily. But in all actuality I really don’t. I have, for 3 years now, wanted to become Catholic; but my mom says no. I have many people in my life who have hurt me but it has only made me a better and stronger person. I hate feelings because they show weakness. I hate words because they have so much meaning which can be used in bad ways. Also I hate words because they express emotion. People have come in and out of my life, but I don’t let that get to me because the Lord has replaced them with better people. I am a strong individual when it comes to the human eye. But for those that know me I am just a broken piece of glass trying to let the Lord put me back together. I am very hard headed, I do what I want. I don’t tend to think in certain situations I just act, it gets me into a lot of trouble in the end. I have a list of mistakes I could write out, but who doesn’t. I am always hyper, never really bothers anyone though. Stress overcomes my life, which can ruin many opportunities. I miss the summer of 2010, many things happened and relationships were made that I would never give back for anything. Relationships are everything to me, so form one with me! I love to give advise and I love when people trust me with things in their life. I have the best people in my life and I would never give them up for anything, they are my family and I love them very dearly. I have been through very little but I tend to over exaggerate things I have been through. My brother has let me down a lot in my life, so I find other people to replace him. Music can always describe my mood, that will never change. I have big plans for my future and I can not wait to get out of high school. I love to watch movies, no matter what kind they are. Thats just a little bit about me. :) I am different and an individual, but isn’t that what we are all suppose to be?

“Day 01 – Introduce yourself, in great detail
Day 02 – Your first love, in great detail 
Day 03 – Your parents, in great detail 
Day 04 – What you ate today, in great detail 
Day 05 – Your definition of love, in great detail 
Day 06 – Your day, in great detail 
Day 07 – Your best friend, in great detail 
Day 08 – A moment, in great detail 
Day 09 – Your beliefs, in great detail 
Day 10 – What you wore today, in great detail 
Day 11 – Your siblings, in great detail 
Day 12 – What’s in your bag, in great detail 
Day 13 – This week, in great detail 
Day 14 – What you wore today, in great detail 
Day 15 – Your dreams, in great detail 
Day 16 – Your first kiss, in great detail 
Day 17 – Your favorite memory, in great detail 
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday, in great detail 
Day 19 – Something you regret, in great detail 
Day 20 – This month, in great detail 
Day 21 – Another moment, in great detail 
Day 22 – Something that upsets you, in great detail 
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better, in great detail 
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry, in great detail 
Day 25 – A first, in great detail 
Day 26 – Your fears, in great detail 
Day 27 – Your favorite place, in great detail 
Day 28 – Something that you miss, in great detail 
Day 29 – Your aspirations, in great detail 
Day 30 – One last moment, in great detail

i am sorry.

i am sorry for talking to you.

i am sorry for being attracted to you.

i am sorry for hurting you.

i am sorry for being a burden on your heart.

i am sorry for loving you.

i am sorry for wanting a friendship.

i am sorry for the pain i have caused you.

i am sorry for being so interested in you.

i am sorry i made you my everything.

i am sorry i hoped we would never get caught.

i am sorry for continuing it.

i am sorry for enjoying time with you.

i am sorry for spending so much time with you.

i am sorry for enjoying your presence.

i am sorry for longing for your touch.

i am sorry we met.

i am sorry for everything i have caused to you.

if i could, i would take every second back from everything with you. maybe we wouldn’t be here. maybe we wouldn’t even know anything about each other. maybe it would be simple. maybe life would be easier. maybe we wouldn’t care.

but if i did that, we wouldn’t be able to learn. mistakes are made each and every day of our lives. we get over those, why is this one so much harder? stupid feelings. i am sorry.

“make the lie big, make it simple, keep saying it, eventually they will believe it”

it really amazes me how as i am studying of WWII in American History, I can find things in which I have personally heard in a speech. This man who said ^ quote just so happened to be freaking crazy! He was smart as all get out! He had a group of friends in which cherished him! His father expected a perfect son from him. His mother loved him like no tomorrow. He was constantly told no. Finally, he did something right, his country failed him. He finally comes to over take his government, and becomes leader. A depressed and pissed off man comes into power of a country. What a stupid mistake.

This man is my biggest obsession, next to the Columbine killers. Why? I have no idea, maybe because they were freaking psychotic. I have always been interesting in psychos, is that bad? These certain people just spark a bomb in my mind! Terrible? No, more like interesting! Honestly when you get asked that question “if you could have dinner with anyone alive or dead who would it be and why?” this may sound bad but i would bring him back to life! Just to see his mindset, what was his truth behind all he did. I mean hell yeah you freaking changed the world, you also showed the world how easy it is to have total control over, and you scared the living shit out of world and the future to come.

- RIP- Adolf Hitler (20 April 1889 – 30 April 1945)